So there's this boy...

I've written a few blog posts over the years about him.  In fact, my last blog post before life took over and I stepped away from this blog for awhile, was about him.  My posts were never happy moments of seeing him or thinking of him...I was always upset, or thinking that someday I would be "over him."  I look back on those blog posts, as well as the poems, and journal entries I used to write back in high school and college, and my questions were always the same "why does he keep coming back into my head" and "why can't I let him go?"

Well looking back now, there is a simple answer to those questions..... True love has a habit of coming back.... 

True love...it's something I never thought I would find.  In fact, I've written a lot about being "happily single."  All lies of course...happily single...HA!  Was I enjoying my single life?  of course.  I have a wonderful group of friends, many of whom are 'happily single' and we've shared so many wonderful adventures through the years.  These girls have gotten me through so many of the "when will it be my turn" moments, and I am so thankful for them all.  I can't say I was truly 'happily single.'  I've always known that I've wanted to find the person who would fill that hole in my heart.  I just never expected it to be Gio again...

If you had asked me a year ago if I thought that I would ever be talking to my high school sweetheart again, I would have said no.  If you had asked me a year ago if I ever thought that I would date my high school sweetheart again, I probably would have said "hell no!"  Fate and Destiny had other plans...  About 11 months ago (September 30), he reached out to me through Facebook.  I spent hours contemplating whether to open that door and let him back in.  After finally "opening the door," we would spend the next 2 months reliving every piece of our romantic history.  I had jumped back on that emotional roller coaster that was most of our relationship.  Questions were answered, tears were shed, phones were thrown, and feelings/regrets were shared.

It started out rough, but by the end of November we were on "friendly" enough terms that we decided to meet up for 'coffee.'  "Take a f*cking leap!"  That's what I told him when he wasn't sure if he was ready to see me in person.  We were both nervous as hell.  In fact, I almost turned around multiple times on my drive there.  This was the first time we would be seeing each other in 4 years.  The last time we had seen each other hadn't gone all that well (see my last blog post before this one, LOL).  We went into this meet-up with our eyes wide open, heads first, hearts second, ready to see if we could "be friends." I was sure we would be there only about an hour or 2....Our 'coffee date' lasted 4 hours!  We took that leap, and at the end of the night, I hugged him so tight, and wasn't entirely convinced that I would ever let him go.  I was afraid of those feelings for him again, but they were still there....all these years later.  "Wherever this is going, just promise me that we take it slow." -his text to me at the end of the night.

We continue to spend time talking through December, and saw each other again for coffee right before Christmas.  We had talked randomly throughout the month about the possibility of seeing where things might go...in the future...not yet tho.  For now, it was supposed to be just friends...

Then January rolled around...We began to talk more about a possible future for us.  At the end of January, I requested to see him more often, because if there was ever going to be a possible future for us, I needed to see him more than once a month.  We decided to begin a weekly date night.  We had one "hang out at my apt and watch a movie" night before he asked me on a real date.  Friday, February 1st...We finally went out on our first ever real date.

That was 6 1/2 months ago...We went out on that date, took that leap, and we haven't looked back since!  He gave me back the piece of my heart that he had taken as a teenager.  The piece of my heart that I never thought I would ever see again.  He gave me back that piece, and my heart has never been happier.  We are taking things slowly, but we know where we're heading.  We're planning forever together...a future with a family.  We're just not rushing through the steps to get there...We are enjoying the journey, and enjoying every minute finally being the couple I always knew we were supposed to be in high school.

A year ago, I never thought I would ever talk to him again, and now I can't imagine my life without him in it.  He has that place in my heart that was always meant for him.  I love when he tells people that we were high school sweethearts who found each other again after all these years.  How many people are lucky enough to call their high school sweetheart the love of their life?  💘