Here we go...

Ok, I have 25 minutes left on my lunch break and I'm going to attempt to write for the 25 minutes.  I'm not sure what's going to come out, but let's see where this blogging thing takes me.

Yesterday's post, I said that I was only going to resolve to do what makes me happy, and not what makes everyone else happy.  How am I going to get there....well that's where a lot of other things are going to have to happen....I'm going to open up here and say some things publicly that maybe I wouldn't have said before.  I am going to resolve to put it all out there!  I can't hold back what I need to say...emotionally, it needs to come out.

I am going to attempt writing for at least 30 minutes a day!   Yes, that includes even on a vacation day or a day that's super busy.  I am going to find 30 consecutive minutes to write (I hope).  I'm curious to see where I will be in 365 days...but let's start small, because well...I give up super easily.  So small...I am going to write for 30 minutes for the next 7 days.  Challenge accepted.

Sorry if my thoughts are all over the place...today, I'm not sure at all where this post is taking me.  Perhaps tomorrow I will sit down with a topic in mind and go from there, but for today, it's a jumble of thoughts.

My weight....this morning I stepped on the scale to see a number I am horrified to see...I don't think I really said that clearly enough.... HORRIFIED.  I really can't believe I let myself get to this number...and no, I'm not going to post the number....let's just go with, my heaviest weight yet.  ANGRY AT MYSELF...HOW...ok I know how...

I'm the queen of making excuses...THE QUEEN!  I will find ANY excuse in the book to eat that piece of pizza, or half the bag of chips... oh and the snacking...forget about it...We're watching a movie, ok, let me just grab a bag of chips...oh crap, the bag is now empty!  Where did it all go?  There is no way I just ate it all...oh wait, yes I did.  I ate it all...every last stupid, delicious, crunchy chip!  I ate them all...without even realizing it...WHAT THE HELL!!

So the excuses need to stop...the "I had a bad day," or "there's nothing healthy to eat in the house" excuse needs to stop.  I need to go stock up on healthy food...it's just so damn expensive!  I need to find the money though...it has to happen...no more buying junk...

ok, so I have ONE more excuse for this week...It's SHITTY out there for the next two days...we've got that stupid weather called snow, sleet, and wind child temps in the -20 to -30 range.  I am NOT going to the grocery store after work today, so I will have to figure out what's at home for the next day!  I will see whats in the freezer, and go from there...  I will do my best to find something healthy for dinner tonight....That's my goal for the day...

I said I needed to start small, so there it is...

My goals as of writing this blog:

1. Find something healthy for dinner tonight.
2. Write for 30 minutes each day for the next 7 days.

ok...3 more minutes to write....

I'm getting easily distracted...I really am like the 5 year olds that I teach sometimes!! 

This is me:

I would seriously be rich if I got a dollar for every time I get distracted!  hahaha!!

alright...end of lunch!  Gotta run!  This was interesting!  Hope my jumble of thoughts didn't scare you away!  Comment and give me a topic...tomorrow I will try to find a focus for my blog!  :)